A Malaysian Journey from the Heart of Darkness

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The last and final blow that destroyed my impressions once and for all about Islam actually began for me before the late Dr. Azahari’s demise. That final nail in the coffin, the most damning evidence, came to my attention because I had had the audacity to fall in love with a Muslima, a Malay ‘born’ into Islam solely by accident of birth. And as our relationship blossomed, I discovered to my chagrin many more Malaysian lies, ones that are never to be heard in those 30-second ‘Tourism Malaysia’ TV spots. This wonderful woman that I have now in my life, I learned, must apply in a Muslim court if she wants permission to leave Islam. Of course such permission has never been granted to any Malay. And anyone that is foolhardy enough to ask for that permission is promptly shunted away for a lengthy sentence inside a government-operated religious prison, which the government here disingenuously calls ‘religious rehabilitation centres’. And of course, the punishment does not stop there–there’s the loss of one’s livelihood, fines, loss of social standing, and more. Does this sound ‘moderate’ or ‘tolerant’ to you? This fascistic system is real and is not condemned let alone questioned by any Malaysian.

Consequently, Malaysia is only ‘moderate’ in the sense that its apostates ‘only’ face detention, not death as is the law in many other Muslim countries. And such a draconian system is completely in line with Islamic ideology and teachings. Why else would no Muslim dare oppose, or not be able to oppose such a totalitarian system on Islamic grounds? They can’t, lest they be deemed apostates themselves.

Faced with a system such as this, I’ve turned to blogging at Infidel Bloggers Alliance and at my own site Pedestrian Infidel as an outlet for my thoughts and frustrations. Of course, if I ever dare utter the truth a bit too openly, or anything else that does not fit the Official Line, I am quickly warned by my friends. “Quiet! Do you want to get in trouble?” Fear is never too far away in this country.

In fact, being a counterjihad blogger in Malaysia is, to be honest, like being the only sane person in an insane asylum. Everyone around you is either unwilling or unable to see reality in its true form–they can only perceive a distorted misshapen sort of reality. But this ‘alternate’ reality is the one that everyone accepts as natural and true. Any thoughts otherwise are not only unthinkable, they are inconceivable. Such is life with the inmates of Islam.

To risk using a borderline hoary cliche, my circumstances here are a bit like the plot from the first Matrix movie (the one good Matrix movie, I mean). In that movie, the main character stumbles onto the truth, but it’s such a dangerous truth that it totally undercuts not only the authority, but the very reality of society itself–its assumptions, its norms, its very foundations. It is exactly the same here in this corner of Planet Islam, knowing as I know, that there can never be peace and freedom as long as there is Islam in the world.

I go about my life everyday in Malaysia with this incredibly dangerous knowledge in my mind. No amount of propaganda from the brain-dead media or government spin can erase what I know. So, it’s best to keep it sealed carefully away, and this is what I do, although it has grown increasingly difficult over the years. Were it not for the net, I would have no outlet at all. So for that, I am grateful, especially to Mr. Robert Spencer [and others] for granting me this opportunity to write for their sites.

Let those in the world who value their freedom remember this. As I have learned in my own life, once a totalitarian entity like Islam takes your freedom from you, you’ll have a massive fight on your hands to get it back. If freedom-loving people can take heed of this warning, then that makes all the risks I face worthwhile.

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  • Chezwick_mac

    In a sane world, we would be encouraging apostasy from Islam in our political and academic discourse and funding de-programming efforts. But of course, it's not a sane world.

  • Gigi

    I am so sorry that you are forced to live this way. Please know that there are many people out in this world who wish only the best for you and remember you in prayer.

  • Lfox328

    Boy, this was like reading the writings of many Soviet-era dissidents.

    • kblink45

      Or Brave New World.

  • Tanstaafl

    Welcome, my brother, to the only true way a human being can live. Yours, in freedom: Tanstaafl

  • winoceros

    Would you please send your column to the willfully blind, greedy administrator of Huron College in Ontario?

    I admire your bravery. Do you have a factual source we can read regarding the conversion of the Malay people to Islam? Why are these amazing people Muslims in the first place?

    Thank you.

  • LindaRivera

    May G-D protect you and your family!

  • ObamaYoMoma

    Why is the US government which is obligated to protect and defend America and the lamestream media cooperating together to hide these harsh realities of Islam from Americans, at the same time that millions of Muslims, really stealth jihadists, are being allowed to immigrate and infiltrate our country?

    Why aren't they exposing to Americans that non-Muslim unbelievers living inside Muslim majority countries are violently oppressed and systematically persecuted when not outright slaughtered altogether? Why aren’t they pointing out that Muslim immigrants to non-Muslim countries without exception flat out refuse to assimilate and integrate and instead form Muslim enclaves that inevitably morph into Muslim no-go zones ruled by Sharia as parallel societies within societies and in direct contravention to the laws of the states in which they reside? Why are they hiding the fact that non-Muslim unbelievers living inside Muslim majority countries are forbidden from building new houses of worship and from openly practicing their religions, while Muslim immigrants living in the West are free to build thousands of mosques and madrassas and to openly practice Islam, even while the vast overwhelming majority of those Muslim immigrants flat out refuse to assimilate and integrate. Why are they maintaining the fallacy that Islam is a so-called Religion of Peace™ being hijacked by a tiny minority of extremists when the real reality of Islam is so obviously different? Why and how can we still trust our federal government and the lamestream media?

    Indeed, why do all potential and prospective candidates for president shy away and avoid this issue like the plague?

    • Jaladhi

      Good questions for all those Presidential candidates. However, you know that hell may freeze over but the West will never have courage to tell the truth about Islam/Muslims. West has to stop all Muslim immigration into their countries as Muslims will never ever assimilate – they only come here with the intention of taking over. To expect them to become human beings like us is asking for too much!!!

    • sure

      dear ObamaYoMoma,
      i think u should read 'A Speech By Don Feder To The Christian Coalition Symposium On Islam – “Muslims And The Judeo-Christian World, Where Do We Do From Here. February 15, 2003'. i do agree with don feder on this. i have a feeling u will too.

  • http://inthepacific.blogspot.com/ Regina

    I feel a deep sense of gratitude to hear your voice. I hear and see the changes taking place in America..and read about those who try to warn us, like Geert Wilders- facing an uncertain outcome?. Yet, I cannot fathom..it is beyond me why so many refuse to acknowledge this dark storm coming. I so appreciate this site here and will visit and lift you up in prayer as well. Thank you-

  • Guy

    The writer is not an ex muslim.

  • Jaladhi

    There is no "moderate" islam and there are no "moderate" Muslims. Period. But the clueless west has been touting Malaysia as an example of a " moderate " Islamic country. However, all the reports that have come out from Malaysia which show Malaysia has stooped so low as to steal even the dead bodies of Hindus, Christians, living in the country and declaring them as convert to Islam and thus stealing the bodies from their relatives and burying them as Muslims. Can any human stoop lower than this? Of course only Muslims can and do this! This says it all about the "moderate" Malaysian Muslim government. I think Malaysia is Saudi Arabia of the East and it is only a matter of time when they might even claim that Mo/allah was born in Malaysia and therefore a Malaysian!!! Ha, ha, ha, LOL…

    • johnnywoods

      Allahu Snackbar!!!!!!!!!!!!



  • http://senatormark4.org SenatorMark4

    Blah Blah Blah…once again! Islam this, islam that and there doesn't seem to be any approach other than to send it back to the arabian desert. I guess it might be possible once the Iranians get their nuke in two months. Things will definitely change up. On the other hand, the installed base around the world is still a problem.You fight ideology with ideology and the First Amendment is the tool for the free. Refuse to arm yourself with the First Amendment and you hasten your end. There is no reason we should be arming the muslim umma in Pakistan, Saudi Arabia, Egypt, or Gaza when we can't get them to announce support for the first amendment. Hasta la vista, baby!

  • WeMustResist

    We really have a lot of work to do. See how long and hard it was for Anti-Jihadist to find out the truth, even though he was not born Muslim. And now its hard for him to live the truth in a land committed to lies and hate. Good luck to the poor man. But we have to spread the truth whenever we get the chance. There is no other way. If only we could educate a whole nation at once. We have to play the cards life deals us, and we have to fill our hearts with love and our minds with the truth if we want to make a better world.

  • puc

    This is somewhat reminiscent of the soviet dissident who while being transferred from one detention camp to another via the public transit system sees that he, the prisoner is free while the mass of the people around him are the real prisoners, cowed or brainwashed by a hateful ideology. This account of a journey out of darkness gives us reason for hope .While I believe that Islamic totalitarianism is of an order far more baleful and destructive than Russian Communism it too will collapse from within and I believe that process has begun. puc

  • John Zimmerman

    The author appears to be referring to the well-known Lena Joy case. She was a Malaysian Muslima who sought to leave Islam in order to marry her non Muslin boyfriend. The Malaysian Supreme Court ruled that she would have to get permission from a sharia court, which of course denied her permission to apostatize. As far as I have been able to ascertain, not one Muslim organization in the West criticized the decision.

  • marieone

    Three things everyone should know about Islam:
    1. The Quran must be taken literally; it is not full of symbolism or vague commands. It is a book written from Mohammed’s teachings. If two passages contradict each other, the later one is to be followed. The peaceful, tolerant passages were written earlier; they are abrogated by later more violent, less tolerant passages. Muslims are not permitted to pick and choose, alter, or ignore any part of its very clear and direct message, or they will burn in a fiery torment forever.

  • marieone

    2. Striving to implement sharia law is a religious duty for every Muslim. Many people don’t realize how politically oriented Islam is at it’s core. It’s less of a religion than it is an “ideology”. It includes a mandatory and highly specific legal and political plan for all people, everywhere, the plan is Sharia Law. There is no separation between the religious and the political in Islam.

  • marieone

    Islam and Sharia constitute a totalitarian means of ordering society at every level, including ritual worship transactions and contracts, morals and manners, beliefs and punishments. In the Quran, Allah makes it clear that man made governments, such as a democracy, and free speech, such as criticizing the Quran and Mohammed, are abominations and must be eliminated and punished by death. The modern expression ‘creeping sharia’ is used to describe the slow, deliberate and methodical advance of Islamic law in Non-Muslim countries.

  • marieone

    Official Sharia courts already operate in the UK, handling cases ranging from divorce and financial disputes to domestic violence. Attempts to introduce Sharia into the legal system in Germany, Sweden and other European countries are ongoing. Sharia already has a foot in our door in the matter of minor disputes like inheritance and domestic violence; it should concern you that Sharia commands that drinkers and gamblers be whipped, husbands be allowed to beat their wives, allows an injured plaintiff to exact revenge… literally an eye for an eye; commands that a thief must have a hand cut off, commands that homosexuals be executed, unmarried fornicators be whipped, adulterers must be stoned to death; orders death for Muslim and non Muslim critics of Mohammed, the Quran and sharia; orders apostates to be murdered.

  • marieone

    Sharia and the Quran demand that offensive, aggressive and unjust jihad be implemented in non Muslim countries. It is written in the Quran that Sharia is the law of Allah and other forms of government are a sin. It is the duty of every Muslim to keep striving until all governments have been converted to Sharia law or obliterated.

  • marieone

    3. Muslims are allowed to deceive non-Muslims if it helps Islam. For non-Muslims this principle called taqiyya is another surprising concept of Islam. While most religions speak highly of truthfulness, the Qur’an instructs Muslims to lie to non-Muslims about their beliefs and political ambitions to protect and spread Islam. There are many examples of today’s Islamic leaders saying one thing in English for the Western press and saying something entirely different to their own followers. Deceiving the enemy is always useful in war and Islam is at war with the non-Islamic world until the whole world follows sharia law.

  • marieone

    All non-Muslims living in non-Islamic states are therefore enemies. So deceiving westerners is totally acceptable – even- encouraged, if it can forward the goals of the spread of Islam.. As a recent example, the Islamic American relief agency were seemingly raising money for orphans, but in fact giving the money to terrorists. They deceived good hearted, Western infidels into giving money to organizations that were factitively killing Western infidels

  • marieone

    Do the research yourself. This is not an isolated case. Islam as a religion of peace, Muslim organization, world wide often declare that Islam is a religion of peace. But what does that really mean? It seems easy for a Muslim to quote a peaceful verse from the early parts of the Qur’an while, following the principle of taqiyya, neglecting to mention the fact that it has been officially abrogated by later more violent verses. According to the Qur’an the world will be at peace only when Islam and sharia law reign in every country, and never until then. That is why every Muslim can truthfully say that Islam is a religion of peace. If any of these points took you by surprise then there is surely much more you still don’t know. This subject will affect you in the near future. Take the chance to inform yourself now, before it does

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  • http://southernrunner.blogspot.com loseyateefa

    Do not put any faith in the government agencies, especially those 2 or HOmeland Security. This book will explain why: Muslim Mafia; Inside the Secret Underworld That's Conspiring to Islamize America by DAvid Gaubatz and Paul Sperry. I think the Gov is in bed with Islam, our president included.
    You are ahead of most citizens because you are educating yourself. I'm trying to encourage everyone I know to do the same and toss political correctness.